do hw scold me, dun do oso scold me. wdf u wan me do?! anw i very sian... w/o daryl i feel very BORED.. nth to do.. no one to tok to. so darn lonely.. blondies better today. =D actually quite fun... tmr gotta sit wif adrian =.=

omg.. i was so happy and relieved cos i thot i made the right decision ytd... i told daryl honestly... cos he was wondering if it were the right time for a bgr.. i said.. honestly.. it isnt.. and he made his decision.. i was glad i lifted some or even most of his stress.. but oso... i think some part of me left wif the words i said. omg.. i duno wad to do.. im so lonely.. no one to chat wif... well.. daddy's right, he has to study, impt year for him and im glad that i sacrificed for him.. hard decision.. i jus had to make it. best for the both of us.. but i feel so lost.. so empty like sth's missing from me and i dunno wad.. my sis called me stupid cos i let him go... and on our 8th anni too. we quarrelled abit.. about frens and family.. impt prob but hu m i to say? i dunno his background or about him.. he nvr told me anything much about his life as he would say to his frens.. guess im jus not dat trustable and everything.. im not dat important and i understand why... i mean his frens were wif him for more than 10years.. me? 8mths.. =.= so i guess... its for the best.. i told dae. she was shocked.. lol.. but..tho i may not haf him... i haf memories. memories of our stupid convos and stuff.. i jus realised how funny he can be.. bgr.. strange dat u can nvr really be ur true self. u control urself.. not so funny.. not so anyhow.. jus cute or sth... not very interesting... maybe a few occasional laughs.. but dats all... i wonder y?? anyhow, i feel much better letting dat out.. i alwayshaf colin to chat wif =D he's always helping me, listening to me.. he's nice.. but i dun likelike him... im not ready for another bgr. esp not another serious one... i'll jus hang out.. get used to flirting and the single life.. freedom of choice xD so yea... cya soon people.. =D <333333

dae, owl,ben,destin,lucas...wdv
blondies i nid help. syukri cant b my bestfren anymore.. he's gone. wad should i do? i noe its hard for him but its hard for me too. i dun wan him to go. his my big bro. i wan his concern i wan him to cheer me up i want him to hug me when i cry i wnt him to laugh wif me. he's important. i want him back... he's not gonna treat me like he used to. he's not gonna b my big bro anymore.. im scared.. im scared dat space he took wont ever b filled.. im scared he's really gone... im scred i'll cry... im scared he'll go to someone else.. im jealous of dat someone else.. i wan him for myself.. my big bro. i dun wanna say byebye... i will never want to. i miss him T_T

ECP!! CLASS BBQ!! a near DAEth experience =D HAHAHAHA!!! dat wasnt a spelling error btw.

me jomin julia and dae decided to b advanturous and go walk to a big rock thing. there's a sand path but its underwater... so we took the risk and walked.. then we managed to get there and we climb the rock to the top and setteld down there.. then not long after.. it began high tide. so we were like shit... then we tried to get down.. then we look into the water.. it was rising relly fast.. then we sw pris and netto and jane.. telling us the tide is rising and to come back. then we tried to tell them to called for help cos we couldnt find the path back. then dae cut herselfon a shrp rock and was bleeding profusely. then julia slipped and fell into the water and cut herself...suddenly we all laugh like siao when we saw a whole troop of guys running to us and one behind another walked towards us...FBT STYLE! we felt damn dumb luh! then i got down as owl reached us and i saw dae trying to get closer... then i climbed back up to help dae.. then owl piggy backed her back to shore as i climbed down i scraped my foot against the oysters on the rock and i thot it wsnt a cut. so i walked back in the salt water and sand. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! and so did julia... while dae got princess treatment. HAHAHAHA!!! dancers tough man!!! hhahahaaha!! and in the end it really wasnt a cut... it was 5... 5bloody cuts man!!!

tody i wanted to go out for lunch wif daddy. then the time he took to get frm his office to here... was = to the time i took to put the plasters... 6plasters altgt!!! HAHHAHAHA walao.

I MISS IAG MAN!!!! miss the frens... but not the warm ups luh... =x anw.. u guys should go for it.. and mayb i can b ur assist coach.. then u guys better watch out man! HAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!! =P

dumb ant keep biting me and i saved its life twice.. now its dead =)

is this funny? this pic? HAHA!! i saw it on maple cos i was obviously BORED OUT OF MY MIND.. so i went on9.. anw i thot it looked funny... u see the hands are like saying "oohh!!im gonna tickle u! tickle tickle tickle!!!" HAHAHAHA i coudnt stop laughing... cool right? xD


ooh! n this tee... u think its nice? its rough work cos i dun haf my photoshop on this laptop so i had to use paint.. but not bad right?? my work? XD so proud of myself! oh yea damn... nida do the back too >< dang it

and this is the picture u see on the shirt.. how isit? i jus deleted the bowen sec part.. haha! sadly its a laptop so i cant scan in the class logo alot of u haf seen.. i drew it darker and dun worry.. i'll find a way to get it done.. anw! wishing for comments =D

*rolls eyes*
dat garigariboh! all i did was vivihufo cos it was falling.. and fulugala said i kurifalu then later i went to apologise and explain.. gagasusu go say wad.. "ya i noe, but others were." u noe wad man u tutukiwi! u were directing everything to me.. saying i susumomo well at least im trying! trying to get me out of the putilulu jus cos i did one wrong thing. and then when i didnt show up the next day cos i was TAKING CARE OF MY COUSIN, u go weeweesoso me behind my back.. so im irresponsible. wdf lah! how i noe? of coure i noe.. i got frens too ok?! im not some loner shit dat no one wans to befren.. cos im a bloody nice person whether u lke it or not u bugufula! u say u twitwikuku and everything.. like u so damn bloody nice.. but ive known u for 2years alr.. and i only heard u say sorry ONCE.. ONCE... not to us.. to the teacher! cos u 'respect' them.. as u say.. which i so total bubigala. self praise is no praise... heard of dat? or r u not educated enough? u almost ruruyalu me the first time... now jus cos im slower than the rest u say i susumomo.. wdf.. uve always wanted me to ruruyalu... but ive made up my mind.. im not gonna let u fififufu me anymore! bloody hell.

HOPE U BREAK A LEG,
<3 SARA

havent got the chnce to post in such A long time... >< alot of things been happening so far.. my dd signed me up on a motivational course i didnt wnna go... 4day course 8M to 11.30PM =.= man! sat,sun,mon,tues... luckily i didnt haf to cancel my clss bbq plans man!!! sigh.. been a boring week... got my comp back from repair.. the cpu... installed everythng except maple atch.. patch file was bloody corupted =.= so i dnno wad to do wif the damn thing now... wdf... anyways.. i read the ps,ilove u book alr.. and i bought a new book which i also haf read finish; THANKS FOR MEMORIES..also by cecelia ahern... cool book!! there are 2 protagonists..did i spell dat right? anyways... the guy one sounds and gives me a strong impression of mr.nikaido(is that spelt right?) from shugop chara... HAHAHA!!! cool book! love dat book.. and no im not turning into a total bookworm nor am i a geek.. wads wrong wif loving books? it IS literature! =D anw.. dat nite after i ate opp my house; love the chicken cutlet noodles!
me and jo went to the park behind my house... it was empty and quiet.. but somehow, it didnt feel spooky at all.. instead it felt calming tho it was dark and quiet.. i sat on the swing and began to swing myself higher n higher... i looked up at the sky, felt like i was swinging and swinging, getting ready to jump and fly away into dat big, borderless space.. then i imagined.. like being on a plane.. ur so high up u cant see land at all... all u see are clouds,clouds,clouds... then u began to see... so many people want to be free like birds and everything.. want to get away from life as it is.. but they nvr stopped to think dat maybe, the sky isnt a good place... in fact it is the most lonely place.. it is soooo big dat there's no end.. ur flying and flying and there's no place to rest.. and even if u could sit on a cloud.. ur sitting alone.. its so big and dark and lonely tho it is beautiful up there.. everyone else is playing down here but ur up there..all alone. like an outcast. no one sees u, no one hears u, its just u alone.. and dat feeling.. it makes u wanna cry. the loneliness u feel... when u haf no one to talk to.. no one by ur side.. nth to do.. like being a widow in an empty house. now i see y birds are always a FLOCK.. id rather the noisiness to the quietness, dun u think?