do hw scold me, dun do oso scold me. wdf u wan me do?! anw i very sian... w/o daryl i feel very BORED.. nth to do.. no one to tok to. so darn lonely.. blondies better today. =D actually quite fun... tmr gotta sit wif adrian =.=

omg.. i was so happy and relieved cos i thot i made the right decision ytd... i told daryl honestly... cos he was wondering if it were the right time for a bgr.. i said.. honestly.. it isnt.. and he made his decision.. i was glad i lifted some or even most of his stress.. but oso... i think some part of me left wif the words i said. omg.. i duno wad to do.. im so lonely.. no one to chat wif... well.. daddy's right, he has to study, impt year for him and im glad that i sacrificed for him.. hard decision.. i jus had to make it. best for the both of us.. but i feel so lost.. so empty like sth's missing from me and i dunno wad.. my sis called me stupid cos i let him go... and on our 8th anni too. we quarrelled abit.. about frens and family.. impt prob but hu m i to say? i dunno his background or about him.. he nvr told me anything much about his life as he would say to his frens.. guess im jus not dat trustable and everything.. im not dat important and i understand why... i mean his frens were wif him for more than 10years.. me? 8mths.. =.= so i guess... its for the best.. i told dae. she was shocked.. lol.. but..tho i may not haf him... i haf memories. memories of our stupid convos and stuff.. i jus realised how funny he can be.. bgr.. strange dat u can nvr really be ur true self. u control urself.. not so funny.. not so anyhow.. jus cute or sth... not very interesting... maybe a few occasional laughs.. but dats all... i wonder y?? anyhow, i feel much better letting dat out.. i alwayshaf colin to chat wif =D he's always helping me, listening to me.. he's nice.. but i dun likelike him... im not ready for another bgr. esp not another serious one... i'll jus hang out.. get used to flirting and the single life.. freedom of choice xD so yea... cya soon people.. =D <333333