havent got the chnce to post in such A long time... >< alot of things been happening so far.. my dd signed me up on a motivational course i didnt wnna go... 4day course 8M to 11.30PM =.= man! sat,sun,mon,tues... luckily i didnt haf to cancel my clss bbq plans man!!! sigh.. been a boring week... got my comp back from repair.. the cpu... installed everythng except maple atch.. patch file was bloody corupted =.= so i dnno wad to do wif the damn thing now... wdf... anyways.. i read the ps,ilove u book alr.. and i bought a new book which i also haf read finish; THANKS FOR MEMORIES..also by cecelia ahern... cool book!! there are 2 protagonists..did i spell dat right? anyways... the guy one sounds and gives me a strong impression of mr.nikaido(is that spelt right?) from shugop chara... HAHAHA!!! cool book! love dat book.. and no im not turning into a total bookworm nor am i a geek.. wads wrong wif loving books? it IS literature! =D anw.. dat nite after i ate opp my house; love the chicken cutlet noodles!
me and jo went to the park behind my house... it was empty and quiet.. but somehow, it didnt feel spooky at all.. instead it felt calming tho it was dark and quiet.. i sat on the swing and began to swing myself higher n higher... i looked up at the sky, felt like i was swinging and swinging, getting ready to jump and fly away into dat big, borderless space.. then i imagined.. like being on a plane.. ur so high up u cant see land at all... all u see are clouds,clouds,clouds... then u began to see... so many people want to be free like birds and everything.. want to get away from life as it is.. but they nvr stopped to think dat maybe, the sky isnt a good place... in fact it is the most lonely place.. it is soooo big dat there's no end.. ur flying and flying and there's no place to rest.. and even if u could sit on a cloud.. ur sitting alone.. its so big and dark and lonely tho it is beautiful up there.. everyone else is playing down here but ur up there..all alone. like an outcast. no one sees u, no one hears u, its just u alone.. and dat feeling.. it makes u wanna cry. the loneliness u feel... when u haf no one to talk to.. no one by ur side.. nth to do.. like being a widow in an empty house. now i see y birds are always a FLOCK.. id rather the noisiness to the quietness, dun u think?